My mind shall whir on and on
About myself and my wretched future
Spinning tales of lie and fables
Till I won’t even want a future
I’m sick of knowing where I’ll end and where I’ll start
The same old tale repeating itself
Over and over again
Make it stop!
I’ve grown to hate myself for my rapidly whirring brain
I’m so predictable and my acts perceived before action
Who perceives my actions but myself? It is me and just myself
I loathe my existence while jotting down what my brain says
Command me, beloved mind
I’ve grown to call myself names
Wish what is worse than death on my very self
Bore sleepless nights with hopeless thoughts
And wept tears of loneliness in frustrated agony
Who I appear to be
Is not what I perceive to be